This was my second pregnancy. My first came to an abrupt end in June of 2011 with the stillbirth of our first child and daughter Charlotte Mabel. It was a painful experience, not only for the grief of our child but also because I was so unprepared, my body was forced to birth. I did give birth to her though. It was a strangely beautiful moment. When I became pregnant again I wanted this birth not to be, if I could help it, something that just happened to me. I was going to be an active partic...